Tuesday, December 25, 2007

He disciplines those He loves...

You know, I'd like to think that I'm a nice person. That I'm patient with people and willing to not need the last word. But you know, the Bible says that we are not to think more highly of ourselves than we ought.

I'm beginning to think that i have it easy in Seattle. There aren't too many, if any, people who know how to push my buttons or rub me the wrong way. Therefore, this makes me think that I'm pretty good at keeping a good attitude with others. However, I'm quickly reminded when I come home that this is not so. All the things that I can't stand about myself and I think I've got a handle of seem to float to the surface when I get around my family. This bothers me greatly. I think I was pretty oblivious to myself since I got home until today. During the few minutes I actually had to myself in prayer I became extremely convicted about my attitude.

"How can this be?!" I ask myself and the Lord. "I thought I was done being this way!" I think about the scripture that talks about the tongue...and who can tame it? It only makes me realize that I can do NO good thing in my own strength. That without prayer and asking the Lord to search my heart for any ways that are sinful that I may be unaware of, I will continue in the same dead ways.

Where would I be without you Holy Spirit? You are so faithful to convict and discipline those you love...in order that I may Live a lifestyle of Love.