I'm sitting here, eating a banana and sulking. I feel like I want to jump out of my skin. Do you ever go through days where you are just so sick of yourself? Ick. I just see all the selfishness rising up within me and I feel like unless the Lord comes to change me I will stay a self obsessed little beastie girl. There I said it. I am not so cute, or charming or funny. Nope. I feel like a little brown blob of glue. Sticky and messy. Don't touch.
The thing is, I can't even hide on the Internet anymore! Why, because some of you know me! And I know what you're thinking...."Colleen, knock it off." Well, I'm trying, it's just that, if I can't be real before the Lord or real with how I feel inside and get it out then I will feel like a plastic yellow smiley faced Christian and that's not who I am. NO MORE PLASTIC CROSSES.
I need Jesus. I need my Savior. I need to get over myself and airing out my brain by writing helps, so if you're reading this, this post isn't for you, it's for me, so just be patient and eventually we will resume to your regularly scheduled program.
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4 comments:
Sometimes I think the biggest love affair of my life is with myself...and when I see that, I feel very ugly...Lord please change me!
Yes, you said it.
Sounds like you've been going thru some big stuff. All I'm going to say here is that it seems like everyone I know, including myself, is being stretched. It hasn't been a lazy summer....
Colleen- Big/ Little I don't know... But I'm glad it's not a lazy summer for sure =)
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